For those who don't know. I bet you weren't expecting this.
Yes, Randy and I are expecting, but we are a bit further along than just finding out. So here is the story. Many of you know that Randy and I have experienced a bit of the sorrow that comes with infertility and with miscarriage. We had actually started the process of getting a reproductive specialist. They believe that I have polycystic ovaries (PCOS) (making getting pregnant very difficult). Well about a month prior to our first appointment, I start to feel weird. I often felt weird due to crazy hormones with PCOS, so I ignored it. I kept getting my hopes up that we were finally pregnant over the past year, that I was getting a little sick of having them dashed by negative pregnancy tests over and over again. So I finally gave into to my hopes (not really believing that there was any possibility that they would be true) and took a pregancy test. To my utter suprize, the test was very positive. I believe I all but fell over in shock. Randy was at school at the time and was unaware of my hopes or that I had bought a test. So I called him and told him that I had seen something really cool and I took a picture of it for him to see. I waited all day for him to get home. I almost went crazy. When he walked in the door, I handed him the camera and he saw the above picture. He looked at me and said something to the effect of "your joking right?" When I told him I wasn't we both sat down and cried. It was just so shocking and unexpected. Due to my irregularity, we had no clue how far a long we were. We could have been anywhere from 4 weeks to 2 1/2 months along. So we called up the Birth Center (my OB/GYN) and got an appointment for an ultrasound to determine gestation and to make sure everything was okay with the pregnancy given my history of miscarriage. So this was what we saw at the ultrasound the following week.
Everything looked great. We were estimated to be about 6 weeks along. We were beyond thrilled, but we were also very worried that something would go wrong. I was much more worried than Randy because miscarriage, although difficult for would be Dad, it is horrific for would be Mom. All dreams and hopes and wishes crushed and followed by lots of pain and misery and sad hormones. The idea of telling everyone and then having something go wrong and having to tell everyone "nevermind" was too difficult to fathom. Thus, our secret began. We had to tell family because we needed their support in prayers for things to go right and in hugs if things should go wrong. Work for me had to find out rather early on too given my job as a nurse and the bad exposure I could be forced into if work didn't know any better. But other than that, we have been remarkably hush hush. So don't feel too left out. Anyways, the reason we are "letting the monkey out of the sleeve" as Randy would say is that secrets have a way of growing.
This is me at 18 weeks. We are now 20 weeks. I will have more "preggo" pictures of me later. Today was our ultrasound and no, we did not find out if it is a girl or a boy. We are willing to take guesses if you want to guess. I think it is a girl, Randy thinks it's a boy. We have the names picked out for each so we are prepared. We plan on doing everything neutral so it won't matter which sex our child is. Anyways, the ultrasound went great! Everything is developing normal and the baby is healthy and perfect. A lot of the pictures look the same, but they are all a tiny bit different, so we posted them all.
So this little bundle of joy is expected to arrive around June 8th, 2009. You can't take our names okay... So the names we have picked are... JD Lyle (after my grandfather and Randy's late father) or Jolee Sarah (after our moms JoAnn and LeAnn and after my grandmother). So anyways, we will be posting a whole lot more on the pregnancy front now that the monkey is out. Stay tuned.