Sunday, March 2

Tear Drops on My Guitar

I don't know if you-all know this or not, Randy and I have had a few miscarriages. It has been a couple of months since the last miscarriage, but for some reason today has been harder than most days. I know we haven't been trying for very long, but it is still painful to see children all about me and have empty arms. We want so badly to be parents right now, that waiting is heart breaking. I know that one day we will get that miraculous blessing of holding our child in our arms, but for today we wait and we pray. On a special side note, I always am so grateful for Allyjean. In her innocence, she blesses my life in ways I can't really describe. Between her and the rest of the cousins it makes being childless much more bearable. Thank-you Samantha for "sharing" them with me ever once and a while. Pray for us, we could always use it.


Robin said...

I'm sorry, I didn't know you were trying. The Lord will bless you with a child and you will be waking up in the middle of the night soon. Hugs! If I can do anything for you, please let me know.

The Olsen Family said...

Hey, I had No idea you guys where trying. I am happy you guys a re finally trying and i am sooo saorry that you guys have had the miscarrages happen. I am so sorry i truely really am.

Becky said...

Fertility and pregnancy issues SUCK, plain and simple. You have all my sympathies! In the 7 years it took us to have Paul, I think I just became emotionally numb. Even when I was 9 months pregnant with him I was still in denial that an actual baby would come out of the pregnancy. Good luck with everything. I could give you all my advice about finding a good reproductive endocrinologist and frequent progesterone testing, reading libraries of fertility nutrition books, blah, blah, but in the end even doctors really can't explain any of this stuff and it makes me crazy. Even after we figured out how to have Paul, the same things don't work anymore. After all we went through, prayer and fasting was what we had to hold on to. Remember, the Lord has fantastic blessings in store for you.